It’s OK to Want to Quit Sometimes
by Daniella Rabbani, Honest motherhood contributor
OMFG YOU GUYS. We all wanna quit sometimes. Duh. It’s OK! Of course it’s OK. This shit is hard. Especially since you clearly wanna do it well. (I see you reading a mom blog, girl.)
I remember being just utterly exhausted by my son’s sleeplessness at around 16 months. He was fighting something off, and man do I love him. I love him so much it quite literally hurts. So of course I wake up to soothe him, poor guy. BUT WHO WAS THERE TO SOOTHE ME AND WHENNN?! Dan, my husband, was just as tired.
It’s not just fatigue, it’s the whole thing. Your whole life is so totally different than it was before. And when you really wanna be your best, when you wanna be a good example for your child… sheesh dude, that takes a lot of effort.
I love parenting books. I love these blogs. I love arming myself with information (PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO GET MY KID INTO HIS STROLLER WITHOUT SUBTLY HANDING HIM A TREAT?!). But I’ve never read this line so I’m gonna write it myself: YOU’RE GONNA WANNA FREAKING GIVE UP AND THAT’S MORE THAN OK. YOUR BODY AND MIND AND SOUL - EVERYTHING YOU ARE + HAVE KNOWN YOURSELF TO BE - HAVE BEEN PUSHED TO THE LIMIT. WHY WOULDN’T YOU AT LEAST WANT TO QUIT?!
So here’s that permission to wanna quit sometimes granted! Permission to feel whatever you’re feeling (yea, the shitty ones and the ones that make you wanna squeak in glee.) FEEL EM! FEEL ALIVE WHY DONTCHA?! Cause mama, you’re only human. This permission, I believe, if we hand it out to other moms like candy on Halloween, could make us feel a lot less alone.
The good news is that this feeling of wanting out is a cue: refill your tank. Treat yourself to the “day off” you’ve been needing.
Cause chances are you’re not gonna quit. And that’s all that really matters, isn’t it?
Does reading this release any pressure for you?
Daniella Rabbani is a Brooklyn based actress and the honest motherhood contributor to the MU community. Her full time gig is mama to Ness.